Since i'm on i might as while update this thing. Everything is going great for me so far. My baby boy Ethan, i just love him so much! But i'm scared, i never been this happy. i have my beautiful son, and my loving boyfriend... and i don't want to lose this. But i thought i almost did. Junior and we're seriously going to break up the other day. i'm not doing to get into the whole thing but it was just the trust that was lost between us almost broke us apart. He had thought that Ethan wasn't his, thinking that he was from and ex of mine. But the thing of it is was that it was all behind my back. It just hurt so much of him thinking those thoughts behind my back and the person that he was talking about it to was just unbelieveable. I felt betrayed in away, but we worked everything out like adults. but in the end i'm feeling guilty about something, because of me he's not going to talk to that person anymore. For some reason i feel better about it, mainly because that person can fuck things up with the lack of information. But it's just, well i don't like the idea of me the reason why he's not talking to that person.

Now everything is okay and good, junior just left and baby Ethan is in my arms sleeping.
I still cannot believe i have him, my son. everytime i look at him it's just so unreal. So unreal that i can feel a tear roll down my check.